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FALLING

I am falling more. Wanting to go out less. Every public fall seems to isolate me just a little more. And though the actual fall is bleak and demoralizing and creates a gut-wrenching fear of the future, it is the … Continue reading

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Dancing In The Kitchen

My husband is a good dancer, a really good dancer.  We have danced in the driveway, danced in the barn, danced in the laundry room and, many times, danced in the kitchen. If there is music playing that gets his … Continue reading

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I’m a definite failure as a blogger. The whole idea of blogging is to connect consistently, to offer a continuous flow of communication or thought or observation. I have spent the months since my last posting thinking about how I … Continue reading

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Renewal Or New Loss?

It’s been four months since I’ve posted.  An absence, as if a silence is the same as a forgetting. But it never is.  Through these four months, winter moved in and out.  Here, that winter gave both rain and wind; … Continue reading

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The Mirror Is A Stranger

How to keep fit.  How to keep fit when just putting on shoes becomes a creative intervention?  When pulling on the left pantleg becomes an exercise in contortion and, at times, comedy?  I have never been an athlete, but walking … Continue reading

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Progession Brings Fear, Of Course

It’s been awhile since I’ve written a post.  I’ll tell you why later.  I’ve been thinking about skipping.  You know the way someone skips up a flight of stairs; not shallow, steep stairs, but deep ones that stretch out long … Continue reading

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SOCIAL CONVERSATION

Last evening, someone asked “How are you ?  What have you been up to?”  I look healthy and well; the only sign of change is my cane and difficulty with balance.  It was a very normal question and not necessarily … Continue reading

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A Primal Memory

It’s when the water laps against my skin that I remember my body’s rhythm.  Arms wide, pushing away, pulling in, legs pleating, pacing and the slow, slow glide. Breaststroke. Breathe in, breathe out. Breathe in.  Breathe out.  I luxuriate in this buoyant movement, expansive and broad.  Turning on my … Continue reading

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Alone

Sometimes I find myself thinking about being alone. At times, I watch myself from afar and see how slow I am, how much energy it takes to do so little. And I watch my husband, busy with so many things that have always been on ‘my … Continue reading

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Loss Talk

Truthfully unraveling this MS journey involves talking about loss, about what can no longer be done.  My pattern these many years has been to ‘focus on the positive’, to ‘just put one foot in front of the other and march … Continue reading

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